So i havent been posting much really. Time for an update. How have i been really? Awesome to tell you really! Life has been great. The bitch is out of my life. Stuff happened in between. Too much to say really. But let me think what came first yeah?

1. Got over the bitch

2. Got to know more peeps. Met some myspace people on the streets. They seem nice and like whoaaaa! Myspace has alot of pretty people! I thought all of them were dolls, all fake and all, but they're actually real people except for a certain few. Hah! Go figure!

3. Been working. Been getting paid. Bought shirts for myself! Oh the pleasure of shopping! I just lurve shopping so if any of you girls wanna go shopping and need a shopping buddy, call me! I'd be glad to go with you!

4. Fall for a certain someone again. Things got awkward but it's all good now. If she doesn't see me that way, I can't do anything really. That's your lost babes but whatever it is, you'll always be my HOE and i'll always be your ASSWIPE! Best buds always!

5. Got my results back! Uhuh! Surprisingly i did awesomely well! Hah! Three good luck in a row! I got 2As, 4B+s and 1B. All above 70 marks so yeay yeay im happy!

6. Gotten to know this girl who's like cute and has got hot hot hair? And she's like from my school? Hopefully we'd been in the same class next year. It all depends on her waking up early so you had better wake up early to register for the module you purdy little thang!

7. Did i fail to mention im getting more random and crappy? I think im liking someone. Havent met her before, but she seems just like me. She's random and she seems to make my day. Oh so random girl! And and she talks alot too! So it's good. Sadly she's attached so i'll just wait and see how thing goes.

8. Went to a live studio for the first time ever! Kid invited me to a SPECIAL SI SHOW! It was awesome! Get to see all the top 12 contestants and omg! Gurmit and Daniel are oh so random and oh so crappy? They're high.. i likeee!

Oh and to Hady Mirza! Eh Eh! Congratulations ar PAKCIK HADY! Ahaha!

Okay so a guy
is nearing the
end of his
senior
year in high school.
Unfortunately,
he still has to share a room with his
younger
brother who is only 9
years
old.




One night, he decides to bring his
girlfriend home
for a little fun.
They
have bunk beds and the guy notices that
his little
brother is already
asleep
on the lower bunk, so he and his
girlfriend climb
up
to the top bunk.
As you
might expect things start to heat up.






The guy remembers that his little brother
is
sleeping below so he tells
his
girlfriend to whisper "lettuce" if she wants
it
harder and "tomato" if
she
wants a new position.







Lettuce!!!

























Tomato!!!

























Lettuce!!!


























Tomato!!!


























Lettuce!!!























Tomato!!!
























She screams.

























Lettuce!!!






























Tomato!!!





Whoa!!!








PULL IT OUT!!!















PULL IT OUT NOW!!!












I can't get pregnant!


















Then the little brother shouts up, "Hey,
would you
guys stop making
sandwiches up there! You're getting
mayonnaise
all over my
face!*!*!*!*!

this is gonna be short and simple course im too fucking stoned right now. seriously.. i dont know what's my problem really. i've got style, i've got personality, im funny and im pretty (hah thought i'd include something funneh amidst the seriousness wee) so why in the world am i like sitting? stagnant.. waiting.. for who? for her!!! why seriously why? we havent been talking much for the past two days.. not like she's showing signs that she's missing me and stuff so why am i waitng? why cant i fucking hell move on? like seriously.. im only am just gonna get my hopes all down when she finally tells me, aL im done thinking and i think we should just be friends. make that day easier for you aL! move on! quit having such high hopes already! argh! i dont know i dont know.. i cant be bothered to think

note to all: alyssa and i broke up. yeah.. who would have thought we'd broke up ay? everyone seems to think we're happy and all from all my rants about our dates.. seriously.. she leaves me clueless. it all started three nights ago.. already then i felt like she was pushing me away a little. it's just one of those feelings you'd get from being in a relationship.. you just know. i couldn't study the whole day course i was too busy trying to get her back but in the end, i gave up as i tried to muster myself up to study in the last few hourd before my exams. i didn't text her hoping she'd come find me first and that she did and seriously, that somewhat make me happy course her finding me means that she's somehow still there with me but then SHIT HAPPENS. she came home from her cousin's house all different. we talked on msn but seriously, she wasnt there. she replied but she just wasn't there. i couldn't felt her presence. i break down immediately telling my mates that i was scared. afraid of what is to come. a break up. and that it did as i asked her to come clean.

then ofcourse everyone would be asking me.. what did i do? seriously.. am i that bad a friend that everyone kept asking me what did I do? I didnt do anything except maybe my emoness perhaps did get her annoyed of me though my cousins think that's a lame excuse for being pissed at me but i guess i cant really take their words. they understand me. each of us has a fucked up life and they know emoing just cannot be helped. but anyways.. I DID TRIED FIGHTING FOR HER BACK. the whole night.. i spent hours trying to convinve her to stay.. to rid of this idea called break up but the more i fought for her, the more she pierced me in the heart with all these words. she didnt want to keep me at all as she gave me more and more reasons as to why she wants to break up. i ask myself why am i fighting hard for her when she likes someone else? when she thinks she's a lousy girlfriend? when she hardly talks to me? when she's hardly there for me? why do i wanna keep her? COURSE EVERY MOMENT THAT SHE WAS THERE FOR ME, IT PAYS OFF ALL THOSE TIME THAT SHE WASN'T. A meet after two weeks of not meeting made me forget of the long and painful wait course she's that speeshul.

shit happens... everyone's asking me to forget her. they told me why i should course obviously they think she's a bitch. when i told my cousin of the reasons, they asked me to stop telling even before i could continue as they told me, "DIE INGAT NI ZAMAN APE? TU EXCUSE DAH BASI LAH". I told them seriously.. she isnt at all a bitch but then all of them guessed it right. they knew what were all the reasons that she gave without me having to tell them. apparently, the girls uses that alot in their past relationships and the guys have heard that loads from the girlfriends in their past relationship. i still think she isnt a bitch even if perhaps my cousin thinks this is just a story she's making to break up with me. honestly, i dont know why i still think she's nice. maybe course she IS nice. as i think of her, i recall those late night chats. the fun and thrills i had while talking to her at 3 in the morning. was she TOO tired of waiting for him that maybe she wants just about anybody who could help her forget about that dood and i just happened to be the prey that got stuck in the middle? i dont know.. i still think her feelings were genuine for me but do i? the day we broke up.. she took me on a roller coaster ride and seriously.. i do not know what to think. gah.. it hurts just talking about it.

i wish i could turn back time and mend this and go back to the way before. call me crazy cousins and all but i miss alyssa and i still wish every second of the day hoping that one day she'd text me and tell me she's ready to start fresh and wants me back course seriously, right now, i'd be more happy to accept her and take her back

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE.. FUCK IT!

It's nearly 1am and no one is back home yet. Ugh. I feel like calling Alyssa up course i just feel like i may have vent my anger or emotions on her and that was unfair or me. I hope we're cool babe course i dont want to be doing something i might regret and the last thing i wanna do is to to something that'll cause me to lose you but yeah. Life still sucks. When you didnt talk much on the phone, it made me realised that i missed having someone at home to talk to. So yeah.. that's about it i guess for this entry. Love you loads babe!

Calling out to god whom i hardly worship, give my bloody old life back! I hate this new fucking life you got me. Sure i'm happy for my parents that they got themselves a stall but really. You got me used to a house that is OH so lively... full of jokes and teasing and all and now everything's quiet. Lonely days is ahead of me. Im gonna be home alone from morning till midnight course that's when everybody gets back. Bro works late, Sis goes to help out at mum's stall after work.. the house is DEAD! Im lonely im lonely im lonely! I thought i'd be cool to an empty house but really.. my house is lifeless. The only thing i can hear is my music and the sound of the fan. I want my family back! Boring days awaits me. No food, no siblings, no families. I want somebody to talk to verbally. Someone to tease. Someone to joke with. Someone to tell me jokes. Someone to tease me. Someone to watch tv with or just hang out with in my room or the living room or whatever. Why did you take it all away? Why? Why? Im a lonely depress kid now thanks to my new life. So you guys might be saying.. call your friends up buddy. WELL here's the thing. My mind goes blank when im on the phone. I CANT talk on the phone course of it. I need someone to be physically there to talk non stop with. Fuck this fuck this fuck this! Unless you're telling you you're someone whom i can call and not talk to with on the phone and yet you'd still just talk when im all quiet, then give me your bloody number. Life is depressing. Period!

Right-o! Time for an update but first of all may i say wee? I may? Thank you! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Ahahah! Okay so went out to see the girlfriend today. Was suppose to meet at 2:30 at orchard mrt but guess what? We were both at home still by the time it was 2:20 i think? Now here here.. this is what i call janji melayu! To all those non malay spekers.. janji melayu is kinda like a term used to describe us malays (to all who doesn't knows what malays are it's a race so yeah omg this is getting pretty much tiring to explain but yeah) when it comes to making promises. We'd promise to meet at a certain timing but we would end up meeting like 30 minutes later or more. Yeah yeah typical! Ahaha! How fun! So yeah.. I reached there at about 2:50 or 3:00 maybe i cant remember and funny thing is, the girlfriend reached there first which is embarassing really but ahahah! PAYBACK TIME BAYBEH! Ahaha! Jokes loveee! I was stinking late course someone asked me to bring the laptop course that someone wants to teach me how to photoshop and stuff so yeah. When we met.. she was pretty much naked. OY OY! THAT'S MY GIRLFRIEND YOU'RE PICTURING! GET HER OFF YOUR MIND! She wasn't technically naked but she didnt had her bag with her like always. I know Di I know! This would be a perfect timing to hug her? Lol! I was going.. OH YES! NOW I CAN HUG HER! Muahhaha but sadly i didn't course here's a secret. I have this disease. Im like kinda super thick skinned around the girlfriend when it comes to talking and stuff but when doing something physical, Im like KICK ASS SHY! And what happens when aL is kick ass shy? He'd go OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD! or he'd end up laughing at your face which was what happened to Alyssa. Sorry girlfriend! Actually don't know why im saying sorry but yeah. It's a disease lah. Just know I have alot of love to give but i need time. Stupid RANDOM SHYNESS! SHEESH!

Right right.. erm er.. after that went to play pool. Wanted to play intense pool but sister was there plus there were loadsa people there so had to like cancel it. Like whoa man! She nearly beat the crap out of me in pool! The girlfriend i mean! She's good but aiyo.. all TYCO LAH! TYCOOOO! Aahahah! Just kidding loveee! Lol! So yeah.. after pool went in search of a MAC outlet for her to teach me how to photoshop. Decided to head to lido 5th story i think? Switched on the bloody laptop only to find out the laptop can only run for like 20 minutes or so? DAMN YOU SISTER FOR USING THE LAPTOP! So she hurriedly teach me but before we know it left like 1 minute? LIKE SAKDHAKSAJSHASHJ! She couldnt teach much but oh well.. atleast she was kind enough to tell me how to insert text and stuff like wth? WHAT DO YOU TAKE ME FOR? A 1 month old baby? AHAHAH! JUST KIDDING! Right... then the laptop finally died ack so I bought fries course we're both hungry.. WELL OKAY OKAY! I WAS HUNGRY! WICKEDLY DUMB ASS HUNGRY! ARGH! I could have eaten the girlfriend up but the girlfriend wouldnt let me eat her.. OH PLEASE PLEAE LET ME BITE YOU THE NEXT TIME GIRLFRIEND.. CAN CAN? AHAHAHA!

Right-o! Decided to take the bus to sent her home.. cant remember what happened in the bus actually.. heh! STM LAH! Oh right.. im getting tired of updating so i shall cut to the ending. Stood below her block like some fool. Wanted to kiss her but heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee something's wrong with me i tell you! TOOOOOOOO GOODDDDDDDDDDD DAMNNNNNNNNNNN SHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Sigh sigh *smack myself* I dont bloody know what's wrong with me lah. I know lah Di! She's your girlfriend what! For what shy? IT'S A DISEASE I TELL YOU! FRENCH PON BELOM! WAH LAO!!! AHAHAH! WANTED TO TRY DO IT BUT ENDED UP LAUGHING IN HER FACE EVEN BEFORE I COULD KISS HER SO TAK JADI! I know i know.. now the girlfriend is gonna think im a coward. Boohoo! Lol! Oh well! Live with it.. but i dare say.. my KISS oughta be worth waiting for.. MUAHAHAH! SS SS SS SS THICK SKINNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

Okay i had post like a shit load of stuff before but i think it'll only get me in trouble which i so do not want so im just gonna make this plain simple.
Shittiest day ever! Happy 1 mth anniversary girlfriend! Most emo day ever too! Never have I been soo bloody emo that the thought of cutting myself came to my mind as i sat someplace distant.